The day I miss seeing you 1

She who has won my heart,

I have been wanting to voice out what I really wanted to tell you for the past few months,yes,indeed i am interested in you. But each time im trying to cover the fact that Im interested in you,the more the situation becomes akward. What used to be just a simple thought to tell,i just cannot let it out and I need to think twice before i speak to you and it has since become more and more akward...Yes I am shy and coward when it comes to the person im interested and I admit this. Yeap,i am bad in conveying by mouth and only can write it down

But I have found out that for you, I will be willing to go all out to cross the boundary,out of the comfort zone and get to know much more of you.If i were give an opportunity,will you let me get into your life and know you better? I may not be the prince charming you are looking for but Im willing to put my heart and effort to know you....

Forgive me if I only manage to express it this way

To my Coffee Lover

Once again I am mesmerised by you,

You who like a cup of latte to go with your awesome morning breakfast on a chill out day. Eventhough the coffee might turn cold after a while, but with your present coffee will still stay warm at heart and great(and that is what I want to tell you...).You who has a crush with a cute dog called Snoopy. O how much I admire the way you persevere through the trials and tribulations that come into your way. How much I notice you were encourage by words of wisdom from Snoopy on social media. Although I might be quiet at times when you are venting your frustration but deep in my heart, I am admiring how much you want to solve and change to be better. Feeling useless at times when I am unable to have of much help. How I wish I can be the person that can solve your every problems. But all I can ask for will be in term of prayer, pray that God will be there to guide and solve if possible the problems that gets in your way.

How much I wanted to tell you all this thing personally and yet I do not have the courage to do so. Praying hard that I will have the courage and if it is Your will O God, leads me O Lord.

I just realised how much my blog has turned into a place for me to express my feelings at times.TT

Warmest Regards,
Ian

Autumn Heart

Life is full of surprises, there is always ups and downs on that. A lot of things goes through my mind of late, whether involving future career prospect or in personal life. 

Love is full of mystery and yet people likes to explore it further. getting deep into it and to be pampered with it. It is of this reason that love was created by God on the first place for human, Jesus has loved us so much unconditionally on the cross, dying for our sins once and for all so that we are able to reconcile to God through him. It is one of the greatest gift that I am unworthy to receive up to this day. 

For us human, love is not perfect, it can never achieve the perfect love Jesus has given to us. Therefore, it can be hurtful, painful and full of obstacles at times. Love is not an easy process as well. It demands our energy and our effort to make it better and stronger. Although we can never achieve the perfection of Jesus' level, we are blessed because he has given us a cause to love one another even more.

Love is quite subjective at times, I must admit that I am one of those who is super weak when it comes to this. At times, I might see it coming but I am afraid to receive it. Perhaps from various past failures that occurred. It makes me scared to do be rejected when I show too much love and care for someone. Therefore I tend to be more conscious when it comes to that. I will tend to lock it away deep in my heart if I fell for someone and tries to be ignorant towards that. O Lord, what have I come into, my heart has not been as brave as before, it gets weaker from past mistakes and it continue to be a mistake in the making again. How I wish I can strengthen up my heart and be bold enough to go forward and making my progress. Failure is inevitable but at least I know I have tried. At least I have cared for the person that I care for. Even it does not happen, I will still care for the special one in my heart.

Apology for the long winding. but my point is towards the special person who I cared and love for. I have never thought that I will ever came across your path and be pulled into you. Never came to my mind that I will be so dumb in front of you because you are too mesmerising that I am becoming dumb and lost. Stunning that I am at lost of words when I am trying to strike conversation with you. Time has become less important when you are around. The image of everything you do has been part of my ever growing brain library of photo albums and galleries. Important things that has happened with you, I remembered vividly in my heart. You have beautifully captivate my heart and encourage me to be better eventhough they are harsh at times. 

For I know nobody is perfect and I will try my best to better day by day. That is my promise to you.

사랑해요

Short Post

Wow, It seems like how time flies, it's been 10 months since my last post. With all the things coming in and out for the past few months, fuh... and it's good to be able to get back to the blog scene again. Anyway, would not update much but soon, I will try to make a comeback once I'm more in term of times to write. For now, I'm living healthy+busy+inspired+annoyed-by-arrogant-people feeling....Anyway, Thank God for everything He has done even the small little things that happened in life. Anyway, just a little community service: Do drop by on global relief page in facebook and become a fan of it to find a way to help up the victims of the Haiti earthquake...Cheers and God Bless!!

Of Late....

Looks like I finally has the time to blog, it was pretty hectic weeks ever since the start of the new term. Nevertheless, I've learnt a lot of things from good to bad. Learning from the experience is what I was wanted in life as it will sticks to your brain rather than studying everything by hard on textbooks. Up to this stage or week 9, I was involved in 4 major events as committee or volunteer. Tests that has my marks dropping like the economy recession and to bad things like been treated with no respect at all. It is such an awful experience been treated with no respect by some cronies that think that they are greater than any other people. Anyway, I won't touch on that matter any more since I've extended my dissatisfaction on that matter and resigned from becoming part of the committee for life. haha...
Anyway, I have 3 more events that can cheer me up even though not as grand as the one that I've resigned from. But at least I was happy and satisfied with what I was doing. Among the events are Career and Self- Development Expo (C-DEX) 2009, E-charity RUN, and a collaboration talk. Everything just happened within 3 weeks period but it needed months of careful planning and execution. I've learnt a lot through the events, from dealing with public to small minor things like helping out to clean the room...haha, surely it is a rewarding experience to do that and to feel part of the team.
Photos will be coming up soon....
meanwhile, I have one last thing to say only, Pesta Ang Pau 2009 sucks!!!one of the 'syok sendiri' events that has its reputation cripples for the first time ever since 2005. And that is the event that showed disrepect to me as part of organizing committees. It's funny that after all the effort that you have done, all I got was a disrespect and an accusation. That is why I quit and won't even support anything related to the program anymore.