Which one is much more harder? sharing people's joy? or sharing people's sadness?
This was the question that the invited speaker throw to us. My thought that time were, surely people's sadness because sadness is hard for us to listen to people's sad story. After he paused for a while, he answered, "it's people's Joy...". The reason behind this is that, do you normally see a bunch of people happy when a person is in joy. For example, if people were promoted to a much a higher post, there are surely people who are not impressed or jealous of the person who got promoted. This was one of the example given by Dr. Christopher Ash who came to Malaysia for the first time of his life from England.
What he said was actually so true when I experienced it first hand when it comes to this question. Never would I expect people to say this to me when I throw this question to them. It happened when I received a text message from one of my coursemates asking me whether want to join in to go to the convocation of our super senior that happened today. I answered yes as long as there is someone picking me up from my apartment. I was actually referring to my housemates aka my coursemates as well.
Ok, here is what happened when I approached this question to those people in the house with transport. One of them answered with a definitive answer of NO...another one also replied NO...so ok, the 3rd person, ...I don't know them well,they senior did not invite me. if I go also no point....if the others go, I will go also.
So, it forces me to make a decisions which I totally regret and feel sorry about that is not going. I'm feeling so bad until now. Anway, the story doesn't end there. Later on, another coursemates of our own eventually called us to see whether we are going or not. What piss me off by then is the way they handled the conversation. Imagine, the phone is pass on from a person to another and it was forwarded to 3 person, and my coursemate had to repeat his question 3 times and what he get were all No. OMG!!! if they ever treat me that way, I don't know what will happened to me. By the way, they did not pass the phone to me as I don't have a transport.
As I ponder upon my decision which I made earlier, I realised that I made a mistake by following their decision. Can you imagine staying with those bunch of people who never bother anything that happened around them. If you are reading 3 posts before this, you will know by now who I am talking about. Can you imagine I'm following those people's decision, gosh!!! I should not. way not. I just can't believe that I'm living in the same roof with the people who only have their world evolves around their study, watching drama, playing Dota, listening to the same song every now and then, going to the same shop to eat over and over again and never get tired of it. Another person who was not part of them is not observing the Sabbath day any longer which I was kind of not really content about. If he does it again, I will advice him this time around. It was so bad that, he went to meetings, rather than keep the sabbath day holy. surprisingly. He is the one who get used and understand more the way of living as a true christian more than me. surprise surprise, there is always a twist....hmmm...
Ok, let me check what are they doing now, since they don't even make a move of going to the convocation, are they really busy??
OMG, all of them are studying, looks like studying for finals are more important than any other stuffs. Even losing respects from others, they are willing to sacrifice. Is that all about life, everything study? Maybe for them, they live to study. I'm not their parents either. It is their life. I'm not in charge of it. I can only advice them if they went too much of something(in this case not study...). For me, I'd rather pause for a while to do some other more 'humane' things like blogging this post and hope that it serves as an advice so that, anyone of you out there can ponder upon.
Anyway, I just realised that some of those people in the house are really demanding and the fact that sometime they are just 'tin kosong' (my definition for tin kosong( empty can is quite different, I will explain later). One of those things that I observed are some of them will not involve themselves in any activities that doesn't benefit them. It is so bad to the step that once I asked them to join, they answered me with the weirdest and most ridiculious answer around, It was '...if there is a post without working, i will join...", the answer kept us all laughing that time. But as I looked back at it, it shows sometime negative on them. Guess what I found out recently, one of them rather pay RM120 member fee to join Golden Key society. haha, funny though, society that doesn't requires member fee, he doesn't want to join. He just purely look down on they other 'low class' societies. He rather joined the prestigious one. What is the different in joining Golden Key with other societies around?? probably he joined it because of fame. undeniable...Guess what, that is the first society he joined in UPM... gosh, this one really irritates me. For those of you who didn't know about Golden Key, Golden Key is a society that is only open to those smart as* in the school. Their requirement for you to join....CGPA must be 3.50 and above. I will not join this society even if I scored CGPA 4.0...over my dead body....
The reason are
1) From my opinion, why should a society restrict and opens only to high achiever, it is clearly a look down on people who score less than that CGPA. In God's eyes, everyone is equal...mind you
2) It is just plain unacceptable if a society give a letter congratulating people on their result and talk all the hu...ha about wah, u score 25% of what is required for your whole 4 years course and then invites people to join their society providing you pay rm120 as a membership fees. They never specifies what is their rm120 for...just said it is membership fee. Can you imagine, they ask Rm120 from students. If you pay rm120 then you are part of 'US'. If you don't pay, even if you score 4.0 CGPA also no use. Can you imagine a poor fellow who is a genius and got rejected because he is poor. Stupid. It is clearly a society for the rich and smart people.
All in all, this society really insult a lot of people by the way the run the society although it has a lot of benefits joining them.
Going back to earlier statement, What I meant by 'Tin Kosong' (empty can) was on the appearance, they are clever and good at study but beneath everything, can you imagine, those basic things also they don't know how to do. For example, budgetting, they just spend and spend like our house is growing money tree. I know, some of them have their parents giving them money every week... they don't have sense of responsibility even. Another example is, one of them don't even know how to wash his cloth. that is like the basic thing, which is washing cloths and still he don't know how to do it. All he did is to bring it back for his mother to wash every weekend...gosh!!!no money, go back ask parents, want to wash cloths, bring back for mommy to wash. Where is the sense of independence. I would not mentioned about cooking cause many people out there nowadays cannot cook. Not only that, basic thing of repairing the toilet also I have to do for them...where's the sense in that...
I guess I really need more air to breath here. There are just too much bad aura around, kiasu-ness, ignorance, disrespect, no sense of responsiblity, look down on people, and lastly sellfish....I really need air to breath in here. argh....
Only one of my housemates is ok and not towards that zone which I mentioned above. It started with two person, now it is spreading to the 3 person. the other guy I just mentioned is just playing on the safe side. I'm the one starting to be rebellious. I really need air to breath, look at what they've changed me, I used to be earlier to class, never late...now I need to follow their car and I'm late also. I rarely and very very very very seldom 'ponteng' but now I did it. And now, I just want to be good and sharing people's joy but was influenced by them. It is such a pain in the neck. Everytime I study also I'm not studying in peace. the aura of kiasu-ness is there everytime. Gosh I need peace to study and to pass my exam and that's all...please!!!
*big sighs* and *big relieves*, so what is your stand now, sharing people's joy is harder or sharing people's sadness? Looks like I've just shared my thoughts and my sorrow that have been with me for so long. Not that I don't want to share people's advantages but it is so hard for me to find one among all of them. It is so hard, the only thing that I can said is they are clever, and that's it...
God I really pray and need your help to go through this and help me strong be strong to endure this 'storm'. I really hope that I can become a better person that go strong to my faith and to what I believe in.
Song playing in my mind now- Learning to Breath by Switchfoot
For those who read this long post until this far, I personally thank you for listening to my thoughts and rants. It is just to hard for me to keep it into myself...thanks ya
XOXO
haha, it's once again the time of the semester where all the madness will occur, practically it is the exam period again and you can find people are getting more tension about it. This scenario happens to me as well haha...and it is once again where you can find I do odd stuffs that normally I don't do during the normal day. One of it is staying late until morning to study( it seems common for some people right??). Anyway, other than that, I don't know why I can make stupid jokes sometime that I don't even know how I got it...it just spark off and I just conveyed it on the spot. haha...Another one is to blog at 4am in the morning...haha.And it is just the 13rd week of study and not yet to the exam period. I think I'm feeling the heat of the exam more seriously than before. Thanks to the arrangement of the Aerospace department that put all the crucial subjects in one semester. Probably i have been talking about the subjects that I'm talking, and I'm going to mention it again.darn... Vibration(easy to understand but tough to derive the equations, I don't even know how the geniuses got them all relate to each other), Eng maths III(final all maths subject that I'm going to take..yay!!, it's the highest level in bachelor degree..and it shows it is the toughest lah...) , Mechanics of Materials(haha...I failed the first test for no reason), Statistics(quite easy but as you leveled up, gosh, u don't understand why certain statistics it is for), aerothermodynamic(long name which is only available in UPM, but I enjoy the subject very much),E&E technology(not to my liking...that's why I choose Aerospace). So eventually, we have to go through tough time this semester no matter what.
Our lecturers even went nuts and gives us quiz and quiz and some of it is done every week....gosh, I'm so tired of it...but no matter what, I have to be optimistic about that, I have goals that I need to achieve besides balance out my life so that I won't be tilted to any side. whether it is studies, activities, play, sleep, physically,mentally, and my spiritual life. It is crucial to have a dynamic life.I don't want to only concentrated much on study as I think I need to live life to the fullest...hmm..perhaps you might agree or not agree with me, it is just my personal opinion on the way of living, or perhaps my way of living. To be in the dean's list is not what I need like some people here who are dying for it. For me, to be in it is an advantage and I will try my best towards it and I won't be dying for it. It is pointless though if you can achieved that standard and you are bad at other things, you are just as bad as it is. Like an apple, you want to have only one side that is nice and when you flip to the other end, it is rotten. I'd rather be an apple that is almost perfect whenever you turn the apple. Getting into the list doesn't mean that you are qualify for anything, like not to do or participate in anything. Getting into the list doesn't mean that you are exceptional or on top of all the rules.
And yet, it doesn't mean that you can do anything you like and just forget it when you have done it wrong. I only will salute and respect those who get into the Dean's list and they are good in a lot of stuffs which is not academic related. That is what I call the real Dean's list recipients. Yes, I may sound a bit bias but my intention is to show you certain people around that is just like that. The people which takes books as their God and 'worship' it. when asked about other stuffs, they don't know about it. Their life is just evolved around the books. Asked on whether they want to join activities, they give lots of excuses and demands for a post that doesn't requires any work( what the heck is a post without work?!!!!!). maybe can ask to sit and do nothing. If want to succeed in life, we need to work for it and not to ask that question. It really get on my nerve when people responded that to me. Yet, they are the one that doesn't have any precaution about basic things, Is it the higher you study, the more stupid they become?? Yes, It happened, can you imagine those people wasting stuffs and never care about it. Can you imagine that they don't care about their belonging and waited until it is absolutely torn and worn out then they change it?? (illustration: can you imagine, you only treat your cancer when it is only in the final stage of it) funny right, some people are like that.When asked to treat or change it..their respond is, 'aiya...don't care lah, next time when it is about to rosak baru change lah.." OMG....
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Getting into the list is not above everything and means that you don't need to do other stuffs. I wonder who will hire them the next time when they go out to work? their parents maybe? So fare I have encountered a few( not many people ) who are like this. I swear that you will feel disgust if you are the balance type of people. I'm not only the one that notice that. And about the people that I can respect and deserved to be in the list...I do know a few. I really respect those people. It is what I called deserved for their hard work. For example, one of my super senior, who are graduating this year eventually got into the Dean's list, was a president, active in sports, spiritually matured, balance in everything he do, he cares a lot and totally, he deserve the credits.
Probably you might think that I'm jealous or anything, but I'm telling the truth, and I just want to show that life isn't just about study and don't care about other things. Needless to say, I want to emphasize that their footsteps doesn't occurs on you guys. I will be happy if any of my friends who have tried their best to be balance in all things. If they fail, I will encourage them, If they score or achieved their targets, I will be happy and proud of them as they have made an effort in it. You know who you are...
P/s: It is just purely my opinion, so don't worry about it. ohya, the other odd things that I can do during the exam period is to rant about my opinion and motivate myself after that...ehhe(Frank Sinatra's song- I did it my way)teehee...Anyway, good luck to all those who are sitting for their exam.
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I know I have not updated my blog for quite some time, but hey, life as a second year university student is not that easy at all( I doubt that my 3rd and 4th year here will be tougher than 2nd year). Eventhough I'm taking only 6 subjects this semester which make it 18 credit hours in total, but *sigh* all of these is the core subjects of my programme. Darn, can you imagine all the tough subjects in one shot, Vibration, Mechanics of Materials, Engineering Maths III,Statistics, Aerothermodynamics,and Electric & Electronic Tech. Plus I'm quite busy as the assistant secretary for the Engineering Student society here.
Honestly speaking, I couldn't juggle my time well at first, I was a lil busy with my society stuffs, until I left behind a lot of my studies. I noticed this phenomenon happening after I failed 3 or more( some of the test results are never announced...I could be failing all...cheese, I'm just scaring myself) tests. Eventually, One of our lecturers demanded seeing me....that was when I noticed something fishy behind it. Anyway, the lecturer was kind enough to advice us( a few of us fail also) he kept on insisting us that we can do it actually, then he asked us why we fail ( like the normal standard procedure if you fail your test...It's what we call ISO syndrome ). So I told him that eventually. Guess what, I only started to 'tidy-up the mess' after the stern warning by the lecturer. He has awaken me that I have I spent too much time on other stuffs rather than studies. So, after the event, I decided to spend more time on studies, the activities stuffs only come after my studies. Studies should be put as priority once again. Now enters the 3rd week after I was given warning by the lecturer, I think I managed to catch up a lil bit of the studies...Thank God!!!
Anyway, Some updates about my life here for the first semester so far..
- I have move out of the college, for some of you still don't know about it. I'm active in societies, but the main reason why I moved out is because I wanna stay with my coursemates so that I can managed my studies more efficiently( which mean I can ask them questions whenever I have doubts)...
-Life is tough here....( like what I have described above ) plus all the assignments and never ending test that keeps going on from week 4 until yesterday. Gosh, they claim it to have 1st and 2nd test but it seems like the test doesn't have ending, week 4, week 5,6 ,7.....then week 9, 10 ...why can't they make it one shot...I'm so tired of tests...this situation can make students stress out though. That is the reason why I can't juggle my time well, some of the test I did not manage to pay attention to as I was busy with my activitivies like week 7. darn....
-trying to juggle my time...it shows a little success now....I try to juggle for my physical and spiritual needs as well...everything most do it moderately....
- I have not met some of my friends that I used to meet during my first year life especially those friends from matriculation...hehe...I still owe my friend a shirt and I haven't returned my friend's stuff since erm....beginning of the year??...hee
- I managed to find time now to do my stuffs like blogging today...yay!!dat's why time management is important...
Yes, literally I'm back on blogging again after all the hu-ha that happened throughout the 6 weeks as 2nd year University students. The one of the most important reason for why I was absent in posting blog was my house here did not have a internet connection. Forget about the internet connection in the faculty. I went online in faculty in those time were just to finish my assignment or did my research or do some important matters. No time for blogging as well...more post will be up soon....let's put a smile on that face!!!!hahaha
Although it’s been more than five months that I saw you, but hey, I will remember you always and I won’t forget what you have contributed. You have make me learn, making me more experienced in this field. It was a joy and it will as well be remembered although you have left without any sigh and sound. You go out of sudden after someone had snatched it from me. For now, even I have a new one to replace, but hey, I won’t forget your deed like what I mentioned just now. The new one to replace you is non-other than W80(hey, it’s not W800, the SE handphone), my current addiction towards the photography world.
Hey, I have a new camera for now, and guess what, my enthusiast towards photography starts again and I’m craving to take more nice pictures around…hehe…sounds like paparazzi pula,holding camera and bring it everywhere I go. Anyway, It’s nice to have one in my hand now so that I can take down any precious moment I’ve found and I might share it in the blog if I found it suitable then. Now, what is left is to pay back what I owe to my friend, I must pay him back as soon as possible so that I will feel relieved about it.
Finally, my test finished and I’m kind of relieved for now after cramming everything into the brain until I experienced headache the few days of test. I must say that this time my test I did all the best I could and I’ve found myself to score in a few subjects to my surprise…hehe. But this doesn’t apply to university required subjects like Tamadun Islam and Asia & Kenegaraan Malaysia.
Hey, anyone can help me in giving comments on what should I do as whether to take JPA scholarship or not. It seems to me that the offer they give me have more liabilities than assets. Which mean that it’s kind of ‘berat sebelah’, It’s weird though, but, I’m really in dilemma a bit on this issue. Plus some more I cannot send in my application to get my flight tickets sponsored today as they only mentioned that I need to send that by today. Hey, my form and everything is in Kuching during the weekend and now I don’t even know where the heck my offer letter is. It could be at the airport or at the post office now. Hmmm….so, in other words, since I’ve not pass up my form to get my flight tickets sponsored, my scholarship decreased by rm2800, which is a big amount to me. Gosh, not only that, it means that the money that I get throughout my course is less than what the PTPTN give. It is far less than what I thought the JPA would give me. Boy, I was wrong, this is like…erm not a good sign for me.
The 2nd liability I found out was the scholarship requires me to work for the government for 6 years. It’s ok to work with them but the problem is, the amount they give for the scholarship is not worthy with 6 years of working in government. It seems a lil unfair here. And I was surprise to find out that my sister needs to work for 7 years only, and she is studying abroad with everything fully sponsored. Can you see the different? The amount of my scholarship is 20k, my sis get around 150k…..
Not only that, if I failed one of the rules and regulations that they set, I will need to pay 5 times the amount I get which means I need to pay around 110k if I fail it.
Argh….It has more liabilities than assets which make me really need to think hard on it. Hey, the liabilities I mentioned above is just a portion of it I found out. If I were to mention it here, it kind of takes time. And I’m risking myself to be in trouble. So I would rather stop here as it will really troubles me if I’m still mentioning it…hehe.
P/s, hopefully, you people can help me in giving any advice, any advice will be appreciated. If you want know more about what other liabilities I’ve found out, you can directly ask me. I will explained it to you then…
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==this post was written two days ago....n again due to some technical error or perhaps I should say that due to bad conection here, I was unable to post it up in the blogger
