Once again I am mesmerised by you,
You who like a cup of latte to go with your awesome morning breakfast on a chill out day. Eventhough the coffee might turn cold after a while, but with your present coffee will still stay warm at heart and great(and that is what I want to tell you...).You who has a crush with a cute dog called Snoopy. O how much I admire the way you persevere through the trials and tribulations that come into your way. How much I notice you were encourage by words of wisdom from Snoopy on social media. Although I might be quiet at times when you are venting your frustration but deep in my heart, I am admiring how much you want to solve and change to be better. Feeling useless at times when I am unable to have of much help. How I wish I can be the person that can solve your every problems. But all I can ask for will be in term of prayer, pray that God will be there to guide and solve if possible the problems that gets in your way.
How much I wanted to tell you all this thing personally and yet I do not have the courage to do so. Praying hard that I will have the courage and if it is Your will O God, leads me O Lord.
I just realised how much my blog has turned into a place for me to express my feelings at times.TT
Warmest Regards,
Ian
Life is full of surprises, there is always ups and downs on that. A lot of things goes through my mind of late, whether involving future career prospect or in personal life.
Love is full of mystery and yet people likes to explore it further. getting deep into it and to be pampered with it. It is of this reason that love was created by God on the first place for human, Jesus has loved us so much unconditionally on the cross, dying for our sins once and for all so that we are able to reconcile to God through him. It is one of the greatest gift that I am unworthy to receive up to this day.
For us human, love is not perfect, it can never achieve the perfect love Jesus has given to us. Therefore, it can be hurtful, painful and full of obstacles at times. Love is not an easy process as well. It demands our energy and our effort to make it better and stronger. Although we can never achieve the perfection of Jesus' level, we are blessed because he has given us a cause to love one another even more.
Love is quite subjective at times, I must admit that I am one of those who is super weak when it comes to this. At times, I might see it coming but I am afraid to receive it. Perhaps from various past failures that occurred. It makes me scared to do be rejected when I show too much love and care for someone. Therefore I tend to be more conscious when it comes to that. I will tend to lock it away deep in my heart if I fell for someone and tries to be ignorant towards that. O Lord, what have I come into, my heart has not been as brave as before, it gets weaker from past mistakes and it continue to be a mistake in the making again. How I wish I can strengthen up my heart and be bold enough to go forward and making my progress. Failure is inevitable but at least I know I have tried. At least I have cared for the person that I care for. Even it does not happen, I will still care for the special one in my heart.
Apology for the long winding. but my point is towards the special person who I cared and love for. I have never thought that I will ever came across your path and be pulled into you. Never came to my mind that I will be so dumb in front of you because you are too mesmerising that I am becoming dumb and lost. Stunning that I am at lost of words when I am trying to strike conversation with you. Time has become less important when you are around. The image of everything you do has been part of my ever growing brain library of photo albums and galleries. Important things that has happened with you, I remembered vividly in my heart. You have beautifully captivate my heart and encourage me to be better eventhough they are harsh at times.
For I know nobody is perfect and I will try my best to better day by day. That is my promise to you.
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