Autumn Heart

Life is full of surprises, there is always ups and downs on that. A lot of things goes through my mind of late, whether involving future career prospect or in personal life. 

Love is full of mystery and yet people likes to explore it further. getting deep into it and to be pampered with it. It is of this reason that love was created by God on the first place for human, Jesus has loved us so much unconditionally on the cross, dying for our sins once and for all so that we are able to reconcile to God through him. It is one of the greatest gift that I am unworthy to receive up to this day. 

For us human, love is not perfect, it can never achieve the perfect love Jesus has given to us. Therefore, it can be hurtful, painful and full of obstacles at times. Love is not an easy process as well. It demands our energy and our effort to make it better and stronger. Although we can never achieve the perfection of Jesus' level, we are blessed because he has given us a cause to love one another even more.

Love is quite subjective at times, I must admit that I am one of those who is super weak when it comes to this. At times, I might see it coming but I am afraid to receive it. Perhaps from various past failures that occurred. It makes me scared to do be rejected when I show too much love and care for someone. Therefore I tend to be more conscious when it comes to that. I will tend to lock it away deep in my heart if I fell for someone and tries to be ignorant towards that. O Lord, what have I come into, my heart has not been as brave as before, it gets weaker from past mistakes and it continue to be a mistake in the making again. How I wish I can strengthen up my heart and be bold enough to go forward and making my progress. Failure is inevitable but at least I know I have tried. At least I have cared for the person that I care for. Even it does not happen, I will still care for the special one in my heart.

Apology for the long winding. but my point is towards the special person who I cared and love for. I have never thought that I will ever came across your path and be pulled into you. Never came to my mind that I will be so dumb in front of you because you are too mesmerising that I am becoming dumb and lost. Stunning that I am at lost of words when I am trying to strike conversation with you. Time has become less important when you are around. The image of everything you do has been part of my ever growing brain library of photo albums and galleries. Important things that has happened with you, I remembered vividly in my heart. You have beautifully captivate my heart and encourage me to be better eventhough they are harsh at times. 

For I know nobody is perfect and I will try my best to better day by day. That is my promise to you.

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Short Post

Wow, It seems like how time flies, it's been 10 months since my last post. With all the things coming in and out for the past few months, fuh... and it's good to be able to get back to the blog scene again. Anyway, would not update much but soon, I will try to make a comeback once I'm more in term of times to write. For now, I'm living healthy+busy+inspired+annoyed-by-arrogant-people feeling....Anyway, Thank God for everything He has done even the small little things that happened in life. Anyway, just a little community service: Do drop by on global relief page in facebook and become a fan of it to find a way to help up the victims of the Haiti earthquake...Cheers and God Bless!!

Of Late....

Looks like I finally has the time to blog, it was pretty hectic weeks ever since the start of the new term. Nevertheless, I've learnt a lot of things from good to bad. Learning from the experience is what I was wanted in life as it will sticks to your brain rather than studying everything by hard on textbooks. Up to this stage or week 9, I was involved in 4 major events as committee or volunteer. Tests that has my marks dropping like the economy recession and to bad things like been treated with no respect at all. It is such an awful experience been treated with no respect by some cronies that think that they are greater than any other people. Anyway, I won't touch on that matter any more since I've extended my dissatisfaction on that matter and resigned from becoming part of the committee for life. haha...
Anyway, I have 3 more events that can cheer me up even though not as grand as the one that I've resigned from. But at least I was happy and satisfied with what I was doing. Among the events are Career and Self- Development Expo (C-DEX) 2009, E-charity RUN, and a collaboration talk. Everything just happened within 3 weeks period but it needed months of careful planning and execution. I've learnt a lot through the events, from dealing with public to small minor things like helping out to clean the room...haha, surely it is a rewarding experience to do that and to feel part of the team.
Photos will be coming up soon....
meanwhile, I have one last thing to say only, Pesta Ang Pau 2009 sucks!!!one of the 'syok sendiri' events that has its reputation cripples for the first time ever since 2005. And that is the event that showed disrepect to me as part of organizing committees. It's funny that after all the effort that you have done, all I got was a disrespect and an accusation. That is why I quit and won't even support anything related to the program anymore.

1st of Jan 2009

It is finally over for the 2008 and the beginning of a new year 2009. This will be the year that I'm sure full of excitements. I can't wait for them to happen one by one and little by little. Truly, 2008 was an eventful year with lots of things happened from January till December. Thank God for those things that has taken place no matter it is bad or good. Good things that has happened will become on of those memorable joyous occasions, the bad one will become a lesson worth experiencing it. What, I hope for this upcoming year will be
1) To be know more and more about the Creator, God..GIG(Get Into God)
2) To improve my grades as I found out that it has plummeted the last exam( even though my CGPA remains the same)
3) To utilise my time wisely...
4) Take more efforts in planning something rather than do it "ala-kadar"

MV Doulos's last voyage to Kuching before it retires...

looks like the yellow army has landed itself in Doulos...
'I will follow Doulos..'haha

today is 1st of January 2009 and I don't think I'm going to reflect back on what has happened throughout 2008, most of the big things that has happened, I've jotted it down on this blog.

this is the best I can get for the fireworks...it's too far to capture
wonder if the fireworks synchronized in all the places, wouldn't it looks better??

Anyway, Today's The Star's newspaper featured an article(or perhaps news..whichever it is) which I think very inspirational and worth looking at it. Can you imagine a duck that neurological Disorder and is paralysed forever? But thank God, someone took the effort to take care of Lemon the Duck. It is inspirational as even a duck has the determination to walk through his/her life, though it has difficulty to walk around and perform what a normal duck would do, e.g Swimming, walking around and flying. Isn't it great to hear stories like that on the first day of the year, and inspired you earlier in the morning rather than bad news of this and that around. For all of guys who wanna check out the inspirational story of a duck, you can check on The star newspaper(1st Jan 2009) page 40 in the world section. or check this website.

Lemon the Duck with santa claus, so cute, lovely and inspiring

Anyway, Happy New year 2009 everyone!!!!

Rants

I will be back to Kuching in two days time, I can't imagine how fast time flies and now it's been 18 weeks since I left Kuching. About the same time last week, I was still tied myself up with all the reference books to prepare for my final. And today, I don't have anything to do. Last week, this house that I live was full of tense and stress but this week and today, it is so empty and suddenly I can feel the emptiness and lack of something. Perhaps I miss the environment where I can see people wandering around in this area and coincidentally met some of the familiar faces at the mamak or even when I'm just walking nearby. Almost all the UPM students have went back to their respective hometown probably enjoying their kampung life.
Anyway, the retreat to Port Dickson is in fact quite weird but it achieved its objectives done that is to make a full planning for our upcoming project of Career and Self Development Expo(C-DEX) which we want to make it a hit and successful. Can you imagine, it took whole of 2days and one night just for the planning part. I remember even one of the department leader having meeting up until 3am just for the planning, and this poor fellow here having to sleep for 1 hour plus for the trip.haha. It was indeed tiring but everyone managed to keep everything roughly planned and I think 90 percent of the plans for the event have been decided. It's a good sign and hopefully the execution part will be a successful as well. to be continue...
hmm...I don't even know what should I do now...haha, I cannot play computer games as well as my mouse is not functioning and I'm using the touchpad now to navigate. I can't imagine myself playing CS or DoTA with touchpad...haha